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Don't really know what it is these days. I'm beginning to feel comfortable in my own skin. It maybe a temporary phase but I am sure as hell enjoying it. I have stopped to worry about what the world would think. Maybe I've even started to live for myself. Who knows?

I notice this change in me. I feel more content, more happy, more connected to God than ever before. It's like I'm just happy being. Just being. Nothing else.

I understand know what Osho meant by saying that we need to just be. There are a lot of things Osho says that really helped me bring my life into perspective.

There is still a long way to go for me. But I have this strange felling that I just know. I don't know what, when, who, which, anything. It just says I know. A feeling of peace.

Sometimes I feel disconnected from the rest of the world yet so much part of it. It's strange but it is.

There are so many things to change, so many layers to remove before I get to the real me. I don't know the real me. I am still on that journey. But I know I will eventually find myself. The inner master Osho talks about. I will find it. There is this overwhelming feeling of just knowing. Something that is too pure, too strong to be put into words. Something my intellect falls short of understanding. It's just there. Whatever it is, I'm happy that I found it. Just need to find a way to listen to it.

It seems to be a feeling of bliss, of happiness. It should just be there. Just be.