Instant Nirvana

I hear and see so many people talk about spirituality and religion and nirvana. A lot of them don't even know what they are talking about. They just think that Nirvana is a state of ultimate ecstasy and once they achieve that, the world will be a different place and that the one would be rid of all material wants.

I'm not saying that I know anything; I don't. Thankfully I'm not misguided in my endeavor to search for the meaning of life. Thank God I'm not under the influence of any fake sadhu or something or under the influence of a priest of any religion.

Osho has been my guide to help me find the inner master. And I still have a long way to go. BUt I have a true master guiding me.

I really think I should put Karma Cola down!!

The blame is on Osho!!!

Nowadays, whenever anyone in my family has an argument with me, they all end up blaming Osho. Bechara, he gets blamed needlessly. Cause they can't win an argument with me, they end up saying "This is what Osho has taught you!!" or "This is his Osho" . I feel so sorry for them.

Well, mostly it's my bro and dad, sometimes my sister too. When they cannot present me with a reasonable argument, they start blaming Osho.

It doesn't bother me. No matter what they say it ain't gonna affect either me or Osho. He's happy wherever he is.

I used to be such a doormat for everyone. Now I don't let them walk all over me. I used to stop arguing with my bro sometimes cause someone had to be the bigger person. I've stopped trying to be the bigger person. I don't give a fuck. Like Osho says, call a spade a fucking spade. That's exactly what I am doing. If I don't like to do something, I ain't gonna do it. I've stopped trying to be the reasonable person and stopped trying to convince myself that I don't need to stoop to their level. Now I give them as good as I get. And better, in most cases. Most of the time they cannot provide me a legitimate argument.

So first they start saying that I've gone mad, then they start saying that I'm too stubborn and then they say that I'm sitting at home blah blah and the end is the Osho statement. Hehehe.

But I ain't gonna back down. They're not gonna put me in a corner now. I'll do what I want to do. Nobody is gonna walk all over me now. Period.

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Don't really know what it is these days. I'm beginning to feel comfortable in my own skin. It maybe a temporary phase but I am sure as hell enjoying it. I have stopped to worry about what the world would think. Maybe I've even started to live for myself. Who knows?

I notice this change in me. I feel more content, more happy, more connected to God than ever before. It's like I'm just happy being. Just being. Nothing else.

I understand know what Osho meant by saying that we need to just be. There are a lot of things Osho says that really helped me bring my life into perspective.

There is still a long way to go for me. But I have this strange felling that I just know. I don't know what, when, who, which, anything. It just says I know. A feeling of peace.

Sometimes I feel disconnected from the rest of the world yet so much part of it. It's strange but it is.

There are so many things to change, so many layers to remove before I get to the real me. I don't know the real me. I am still on that journey. But I know I will eventually find myself. The inner master Osho talks about. I will find it. There is this overwhelming feeling of just knowing. Something that is too pure, too strong to be put into words. Something my intellect falls short of understanding. It's just there. Whatever it is, I'm happy that I found it. Just need to find a way to listen to it.

It seems to be a feeling of bliss, of happiness. It should just be there. Just be.